3 months!

Being away from home for 3 months has opened up new vantage points for myself. Points that I have refused to use to widen my own horizon. Recently, I have experienced what some may label as an epiphany.

It has come to my attention that what have been holding me back from diving into the foray of 'uni' life are the following: 1) my physical distance from the university itself (I live in god-forsaken Sengkang, for crying out loud!), 2) my [hopeless] passion for someone who refused to accept my passion to begin with, and 3) my desire to achieve everything I want for myself in a split-second.

These things have hindered me from what I should be doing here, what I came here for in the first place: my studies. I have suffered from paralysis because of the three above mentioned reasons.

I am not here to simply squander every single penny that the Singapore 'gah-men' has been handing me through the university. They're paying me to study. In other words, I'm here to work, and not mope around because of some silly old love-spell that wore off.

The good thing is I have recognized these obstacles and that I am now ready to dance to the new tune playing in this new chapter of my life. I nearly gave up my dreams of doing what I wanted to do in the first place. But now, I need to focus.

Things happen for a reason (ah, such a hopeless fatalist I am), and everything will unfold in due time. Everything will fall into proper place.